I’m not sure I’ll have the mood to write this tomorrow, so I’m writing it today 
I’m sad to see 2009 go, it was a great year. Probably the greatest with all its mistakes. I mean…
In January, I had a great time spent home with recovering from my disease, and also in January I went to school for the first time in a very long time. In February, I tried to pick up the pieces, I can say I’ve pretty much failed at this topic, but life goes on, what can we do? Albums got released, I got failed and passed tests, both life’s and school’s tests. I got to know two amazing people who I can always rely on.
In May-June, I felt the end coming and it was the sweetest feeling ever. Got assured about the stability of my condition, I was very glad to see summer arriving and I was also glad to get to know new people through musical obsessions.
August came and I wouldn’t like to go into details in connection with Sziget, you could listen to my whining for complete months, so when it ended, I felt empty and was also glad to see school coming. I felt occupied, I always had something to do with myself.
In September, “You-Know-What” happened to me, and it helped me gain the friendship of new people, which I’m still very thankful for. In October, I felt a bit tired, so autumn break was really welcome here. I consider November as the worst month in this year. I don’t remember if I’ve ever cried as much as I cried in November. Fortunately, I still had some people around me who listened to me anytime I had the urge to whine about my fucked up life.
December is going pretty well so far, although Christmas was more like any other days, only with a Christmas tree, I really had some sweet conversations with friends, I discovered a few things about them, about myself and 2009, coming to an end… it’s not cool at all.
What I’m expecting from 2010 is changing. Mainly changing myself, I have this regretably uncool attitude towards school, and I hope I can change it someday. Concerts…. Highly recommended. Getting sure about my aims, which I’m starting to see a bit clearer than before.
What I’m surely going to do in 2010 is paying more attention to those who I love and not about those who I don’t care about, and who don’t care about me. What I hope is that those people I don’t like will leave me alone and rather care about themselves then about damning me. We don’t appreciate damning. But I saw a T-shirt with the inscription: “If others damn you. DAMN BACK!!!” We’re really not that type.
Oh, and we should really stop talking about myself as a “we”.
In school, I’m going to do my best, although I’m quite sure I’m gonna fail at. Physics. Not really awesome, lemme tell ya. Butbutbut, I’m trying to keep my head above the surface. But yes, it keeps feeling like drowning. Still not awesome.
Anyway, and I’m definitely not going to cry as much as cried this year. Holy shit, it was more like dessication than crying. Whatever.
Bye, 2009, I’ll always love you. <3
And 2010, hold on just for a sec. We’re really gonna rock you.. You know. Me and… Tia.
