Right now.
Is it because I won’t go to school until next Monday and I can be relaxed until then, or is it because my “one year ago” syndrome’s just hit me again. One year ago, I had my second operation. Or.. I was having my second operation. Hold on, I look it up in my other blog.
Idk, I didn’t write the exact date. Anyway, it was about… noon? (I hate this word)
Soooooooo, according to my over-emotional subconsciousness, I’m having this nostalgic feeling right now. Because the You Found Me video came out that day and, and I was listening to that song before the surgery and when I woke up during the surgery, it felt (reeeeeaaaaallly coooooold and I couldn’t swallow and I couldn’t breathe, cause there was a GODDAMN PIPE in my throat) like I heard this song too and when I opened my eyes I saw the operation room and all the scary people(‘s legs) and WOOOOAAAA, it’s been one year (and fourteen months but I still ain’t over you…. *singing* HEEEYYY, I’M THE BLOOD IN YOUR VEINS, I’M THE COLD WHEEEN IT RAAAAAAAAIINS, I’M YOUR HEART WHEN ITTTT BREEEAAAAKSSSS) and and and it feels good.
And times like these, I decide not to care. Anyway.
OTHER TOPIC!!!
So my computer deepfroze yesterday (especially my MSN) and I restarted EVVERYTHING. And when I logged back in my MSN, TEN WINDOWS POPPED UP and I was like: Wtf… 
Exactly ten… Two of my classmates, Detti, my sister, one of my friends from (hell, I don’t know where he lives), and FIVE foreign friends wrote to me.
WOOAAA. Anyway, it was interesting, I wrote here and there and everywhere (I guess this is how being important might feel like).
So I had a few weird conversations, a few heartfelt, some funny and several.. neutral ones… But every one of them put at least one brick to my house of calmness.
That was lame. But true, I feel a bit relaxed now, like nothing bad is going to happen. I don’t believe, just hope, you know.
And besides, I got a “:)” from Jonathan Jones on my “wall” on Facebook and it’s ahh. Feels good Like when he said “There’s always hope”. I like these happy guys, seriously, they can make my day everyday
No. Depression is not gone, but it is until I have a few days off, thank you.
Oh, and those people who I though they’re gonna fight… well, they apparently won’t, so this makes me feel even more awesome *-*
Why is The Hundred Million Suns this quiet? >.< It’s gonna scare the shit outta me when the next album starts -.-”
Oh, and the music video. Total love.
