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You give the strength to me…

{ December 4, 2009 @ 9:08 pm } · { Bad day, Music, School, Thoughtful, Videos }
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I played this song on the bus. While walking on the street, crossing the road, leaving the house, everywhere. If my sister and my mother weren’t sitting here in the room, I would sooo COL (cry out loud x])

I would like to. Seriously, I’m going to… I think it will happen today. I don’t know how long can I hold it back.

Anyway. My best friend left my school. I went through all the options, questions, thoughts and I didn’t find myself guilty in the case. Thank you.

To tell the truth, when we said goodbye (that “not really goodbye, but still, goodbye, cause I love you and I will miss you” goodbye and “i know we’re gonna see each other soon”-goodbye) and she left the bus station to go back to the school, I wanted to grab her coat and shout like: DON’T GO AWAY, DON’T LEAVE ME HERE ALONE!!! I DON’T WANT YOU TO GO!!!

I should have. I haven’t really tried to talk her down. I just asked “for real for real?” and she said “yes” and I guess that’s when it got decided. Anyway, it’s still kind of kind from her. She stayed this long only because of me and our form master. And I seriously started to think about leaving the school. I don’t know where should I go or when or why….. I mean.. I know why. I freakin hate to be lonely. And I would like to gather AAAALL my friends from AAALLL around the world and  gather them into one class and it would be the happiest class ever!!

I’m lonely :( Tom Smith told once “there’s beauty in the lonely”, but I don’t really see any beauty in this f*ckin lonely.

AND I AM ANGRY WITH HER!!! I mean, why couldn’t she be stronger? But this is stupid, cause she has to follow her way. And if that way leads to another school, I must accept it. Who am I to (save you? to try and tame you, now that you are freeeeee of meeee…) tell her what to do? I’m not her mother. I’m not her.

I must have fever. Seriously, I’m talking about things I’d never talk about with people I’d never thought I will. Anyway. So her. HER. She’s gone. And I don’t know what to do. I’m seriously feeling ill, and I’m not in the shape to talk about this. I don’t know how will I go on without her. I guess I got used to having someone by my side. I know how should I spend my days in school until I leave it too, but it wouldn’t be good. It’s not what high schools supposed to be about.
I should really leave my school now, like Detti did. But where would I go? English is very important for me and as soon as I get the chance, I’d like to go to Great-Britain. And it’s not about the festivals :D These times when I talk about how much I love them, they’re all jokes, seriously, I love GB for its festivals, but I really like those people’s attitude, I like their sense of humor… and I’ve cried so much during this day… and my head hurts soooo bad.

And I want Kamila, Kayla, Allison, Lara, Brigi, Leia, Ania, Fizzu, Dóri, Dóri (the other one x]) and well… Detti to study in my school. Right now. My mum is sleeping here. Oh, she’s not sleeping. The advantages if your mother can’t speak in English: you can write about your plans about leaving your school without her knowing it. I’m evil maybe.
Anyway. Detti said those people whose lives are easy now, they’ll suck later. I suck now… I want to have an easier life… later… I should find out what I want to be when I grow up….. musicmusicmusic.
I wanna play the drums. Right now. I’ll form an indie rock band. Or a supergroup like The Reindeer Section. :O

I live in my dreams, holy crap.

So… let’s try to give some sense to all this stuff I just wrote here.
My friend left me. I’m lonely.
I want to leave too. I don’t know how.
I guess it’s just way too scary for me that everything was sort of AWESOME and it turned AWFUL just… suddenly. To the snap of gods’ fingers, or idk.
This could be the title of a song. Anyway… I think I was born to the wrong place….. in the right time. I mean, The Fray go back to the studio to make the new record in January!!! THAT’S A GOOD THING. But what is it worth if I don’t have anyone I can discuss it with? I mean, Detti is a person who listens to what you say, no matter if she doesn’t care about it. I mean,  for god’s sake, she knows me as much as my sister does, and that’s serious :O And she knew all of my obsessions, my little arghs, you know, I tell her everything… and… and this is when I start to think about that maybe she’s such a good person that she got fed up with my things and left, but she wouldn’t tell me.

Cause that’s how she rolls.

I tried to write something about what I feel. I don’t know how to solve this… I seriously don’t. And I want to have some rest finally. Maybe I’m going insane. Sorry if I was incoherent, sorry if you don’t get anything, sorry if you… ahm, whatever.

38,4 °C. That’s not good.

“You give the strength to me, strength I never had,
I was a mess you see, I’d lost the plot so bad,
you dragged me up and out, out of the darkest place,
There’s not a single doubt when I can see your face(s).”

Holy crap, Tia, shut up finally! You’re pathetic.

Bones starve the flash…

{ November 4, 2009 @ 9:31 am } · { Check it!, Music, So-so, Thoughtful, Videos }
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Okaaaay… I’m not… totally insane, okay, I can be still saved :D
Whatever.
I was like… Let’s make a video… Sziget memories, Millenáris memories, SNOW PATROL and EDITORS memories and I made a video… The music is very close to my heart (it’s Meese – Don’t forget) because it can cheer me up whenever I’m down, aaaaand it’s separated into three parts… so I used it to separate the video into three parts, the first is about Sziget, the second is about Millenáris, and the end, the “peak” of the whole stuff is both together. :)

I think it’s not a bad video, I’ve made better ones, but I just had to.

 

I was like weeping in front of my laptop, it was a torture to EDIT the video, I hope it’s no torture to watch it :)

Oh, goooosh, I wish I knew why these moments mean so much to us. I mean, most of the people I knew that they were attending to those shows just… moved on…

Whatever. It’s time to leave, cause we have to be in the hospital for (at least) half past eleven. I’m not nervous, I’m so passed being nervous about these things. I got my immunization against swine flue… and H1N1… I don’t know, I have my opinion about these things….. I guess it won’t harm. If so, I screwed up, I guess :D

Soooo, get your fingers crossed for me.

Like Isaac said: “HERE WE GO!!! Writing some lyrics…”

And here’s the video :) I hope you’ll love it, it has all my heart in it :)

 

Something’s so not good…

{ November 1, 2009 @ 11:44 am } · { Bad day, Lyrics, So-so, Thoughtful }
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Dear old You Found Me lyrics… it was so good… it’s not like Isaac Slade ruined it, the studio version is also kind of awesome, but not THAT awesome. The first version was good because during the verses, there was a heartbeat-kind of… drum… (which I really appreciate, cause Benji is reeeaaally not a piano rock drummer :) ) And Isaac had much more emotions in those performances. When at the end he was just randomly (or not randomly, who cares, it sounded like random) sang things like the post’s title.

 

Whatever. I didn’t wanna talk about this. x) I wanted to talk about HORRIBLE actors. Really, who believes them? And I’m not talking about Brad Pitt or Johnny Depp or WHOEVER, but people. Normal people on the bus, in the school. You just recognize when they lie, don’t you? I mean, I believe I absolutely do.

Whatever, it’s an other thing I didn’t want to talk about. Something popped in yesterday. I can’t handle people. Seriously. I don’t know how to handle them. When they say something nice, or something rude or they just give a damn what I do. In the primary school, I knew everyone inside out, although, God be my witness, they were the last people on Earth I cared about.
But now, when someone says (they saw you in the night and on your own *-* *sings* That’s a good song) So when someone says he/she likes me, what should I say?? “Thank you”??? or “I like you too”???

 

What the heck. And to be honest, I can handle bad opinions much better. I just consider it to be a useful thing then, not caring about it. It’s the easiest. And what if someone is like totally freaked and nervous and things like these. I should be able to put that person first and neglect my feelings, right? But when this happened yesterday, the only thing I could think about was: “Gosh, it’s not MUCH worse for ME!” Who cares about me when that person is in a bad shape and would really use some help?

Whatever, I’m a slug of crap if we’re at comforting nervous people.

I should be studying. THIS IS THE OTHER THING!!! I do not need to know what a certain poet PROBABLY thought when he wrote his poem… because it won’t make me a better writer. I do not need to know when they were born… and I know, it’s the basic knowledge and all that. But if I do not know them, they won’t let me have the GCSE and I won’t be ale to do something with my life.

I’m really gonna handle amplifiers at concerts like Glastonbury and T in the Park and Oxegen and V and.. and…

ah, whatever…..

Dammit

{ October 20, 2009 @ 3:30 pm } · { Music, Thoughtful }
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I would. I honestly would buy every single record (album, you know) I am listening to on my computer. I would. But here are my two main problems.

1) WHERE do you find a damn Starsailor/Meese/Stabilo/(hell, The Fray) album in Hungary? And the list goes on, since I don’t really dig Hungarian people’s popular music, like Lady Gaga, Madonna, BEP or things like these.

2) I don’t have the money. Man, if I did, if I did have the money, I would travel abroad to get albums. I would travel to London or Los Angeles, or I don’t know and spend a whole week with purchasing albums. I’m serious.

But I can’t. Cause I’m living in a damn country full of crappy music (and crappy music stores, although God Bless UsaCD for ordering The Fray’s self-titled record, I’m treasuring it), so I’m from a damn country like Hungary and have no chance to see my favourites on the shelves.

And yes. I am sorry for downloading music. I’m always thinking like: Man, these artists deserve to have their album in original package and all that. But. I. Physically. Cannot. Go. Into. The. Shop. And. Buy. The. Damn. Album. Cause. There. Is. No. Money. To. Pay. With.

DID YOU GET THAT???

Even an end has a start…

{ October 6, 2009 @ 1:16 pm } · { Check it!, Little somethings, Music, Thoughtful, Videos }
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Sorry, James, it’s Tom-time again :/

Just a short post. I finally found out why I’m so obsessed with he music video of “An End Has A Start”.
I knew it’s because of the dancers. But now, I know exactly.
WHO WOULD DANCE THIS AWKWARDLY TO A MUSIC LIKE THIS?

It’s rarely to the beat, it’s not even “professional”… it’s really… childish?

And it’s awesome. Period.

Change My Mind

{ October 1, 2009 @ 3:33 pm } · { Little somethings, Music, Thoughtful }
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I don’t think these metalcore and screamo and these kinda bands are bad… o.O”
(Just a thing that made me think about it) I don’t look down on them. I just don’t think that kind of music makes sense…
And yes. I always have to know what the certain song is about. I’m always looking for the meaning… but that’s just my personality. Who cares? :D

Safe at home

{ September 23, 2009 @ 2:42 pm } · { Bad day, Little somethings, Music }
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See? This is where you’re wrong.

I THOUGHT… if I don’t have first lesson, I’ll have seat on the bus – wrong
I THOUGHT…  if I have only three lessons held, I’ll be relaxed by getting home – wrong
I THOUGHT… getting home with only two tests to prepare for is a good thing – wrong
I THOUGHT… listening to Editors is good for me – wrong
I THOUGHT… if I keep myself busy time will fly – wrong
I THOUGHT… as a stubborn teenager, I’ll enjoy being alone – wrong
I THOUGHT… if I’m safe at home, I get in a good mood – wrong

But let’s not get depressed, the only positive thing in this “I THOUGHT” list is the next:

I THOUGHT… I shouldn’t listen to Starsailor, cause I’ll get into a bad mood – WRONG ;)

At least James Walsh knows what I need *-*

Indignant

{ September 21, 2009 @ 2:01 pm } · { Little somethings, Music }
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LET ME MAKE SOMETHING CLEAR!!! I’ve heard for the second time, that I was surely going to the Editors concert for Tom Smith. WHAT THE HECK??? I MEAN, COME ON!!! I didn’t go to that concert, because Tom Smith is hot!! I went to the concert, because I wanted to hear live music from live people, I wanted to see that the band I look up to, the men I look up to can actually create music on stage, live, not just in the studio, because it is important for me! And yes, it fills the studio songs with much more life and power, so now, when I listen to them, I can “picture” the way it would sound on a concert.
Mainly those that were played the day yesterday.
And the fact, that Tom Smith is amazingly sexy is just an advantage x3
I would go to see ugly guys live if they made good music. For example Meese. I WOULD DIE for a Meese concert. Although Patrick Meese (or Nathan Meese, I mistake them often) is not so… mmm… attractive :D

This is just a thing I had to share. I’M NOT A FAN BECAUSE IT IS COOL!!! I AM A FAN BECAUSE I ADMIRE THE CERTAIN BAND’S WORK AND MUSIC.

Thank you.

Tell Me It’s Not Over

{ September 20, 2009 @ 7:58 pm } · { Frekin' cool, Music }
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You know, I told you, I’ll write Starsailor songs’ titles as post titles, soo… here’s one that actually expresses what I feel…

Sooooooo…. It all began with J.K. Rowling, you know… she wrote Harry Potter – as you may know it by now. So, she wrote it, so we watched it. So we watched the third movie… so we fell in love with Sirius and Lupin. So my sister searched for videos. So she found Run by Snow Patrol. So I downloaded the album, so we fell in love with them. So we waited for two years to see them live. So they announced they come to Hungary. So I search for info on forums. So I found this fangirl. So we went to the concert together. So we became friends. So she showed us the band called “Editors”. So we fell in love with them. So *within a month* they announced they come to Hungary. So we went to this concert.
So God bless J.K. Rowling…

The concert was… INSANE!!! This guy is.. insane… the entrance was.. kinda hectic, no one knew where should we go, what should we do, but we got in. Second row, next to the loud speakers – thanks, my left ear is still deaf, btw. Dani and Detti were behind us, we had a great time together :)
So… the guy and Walström from MTV started to talk, but I couldn’t really pay attention, cause in that moment…. I saw them. Tom and Chris… to be exact… or what. Soooo… I just… saw them. And I could’ve sworn one of them… actually looked at me. So… whatever… they came on stage…
And so it began…

It began with “I swear to god…” and… it was…. I swear to god it was the best intro EVER!!! (please, ignore the fact that I was at a Snow Patrol concert, it can’t be compared, okay? I love both of them) So…. the first song is just.. soft vocals and incredible ending with awesome instruments……. and backing… whatever…
So. The second song was An End Has A Start. I WANTED TO STAND UP, RUN THERE AND JUMP UP AND DOWN DURING TOM AND THEY GUYS TORE THE STAGE APART!!!!! And he looked at me ;) Tom.. for 5 loooong seconds. He looked at me and I kinda… tried to smile (I mean try to pretend I’m a human being and not some kind of… worshiper :D ) and… HE SMILED BACK!!!! And carried on with rockiiing :D

I can’t remember the exact order of the songs, but I don’t have the power in my soul to open the picture of it, because it would just crate a miserable feeling in my guts because I couldn’t reach the damn paper :D Okay… just for you xD :D

Bullets. I was like: WHAT THE HELL? That song is sick.. really… “noo, you don’t need this disease, you don’t-you don’t need this disease, you don’t, you don’t…” GAAAAOOO :D xD It was awesome and really surprising :D
Eat Raw Meat = Blood Drool… This. Is. The. Best. Song. So. Far. From. The. New. Record. That hasn’t been released yet. So… it’s awesome… it has such… a… FANTASTIC CHORUS!!! I didn’t understand the lyrics exactly, but.. but I was like: oh, my… dear.. lord… this song. Rocked. My. Face. Off. AND IT DID!!!!

You Don’t Know Love, or what. I don’t really remember this song, but it’s surely awesome :D :D:D Yeah, something I remember from it… :) Bones. It was wicked :D BONES STARVE THE FLAAASH!!!!! GAHHHHHHH!!!! :D
The Racing Rats… I knew it was coming, because he always plays a kind of piano intro for it, then the drum.. .sticks four times, and then the piano again…
When he sang the most moving part, the “OOOH, COME OOOON NOOOOW, YOU KNEW YOU WERE LOST!!!” Mira grabbed my hand so hard, it still hurts xD And I kind of… hit my sister xD But kept my eyes on Tom who just stood up and was dying on the piano…
Nothing compares to those moments.

The Big Exit. It is one…. totally.. crazy song. WHO WRITES STUFF LIKE THAT? Well, let me share this info… Tom Smith…
You are fading. I had the song on my laptop but never really listened to it, so it was new for me, but I still remember how it sounded and… and… magical…
Fingers in the factories: WHAT THE HECK? *gasps* It’s not so common, they play it reeeaaaally rarely and… I JUST COULDN’T STAY ON MY CHAIR. Although I did stay on my chair :) So whatever. IT ROCKED!!! I don’t have the words :) Papillon. IT KICKS LIKE A SLEEP TWITCH!!!!! Great, great and serious stuff :)

Walk the fleet road… this is my dark, crying song… :) But the next… Smokers Outside The Hospital Doors… you know, what I feel in connection with hospitals, I’m kinda… I don’t know… :) So… it was like, the most beautiful song during the concert which is an interesting thing, because that song ROCKS!!! The chorus is amazing, the ending is amazing, how Ed and Russel sing together and…….. I love the guitars :) So it made me cry… :)
Munich. It was cool… really, great song, big “classic” song :) So yeah. Uhm…
Brick&Mortar. New stuff. I can’t really remember it, because we were allowed to stand up, go to the stage and jump and sing and all that, and all I could think about was: OMGOMGOMGOMG, MAGIC IS HAPPENING TWO METERS AWAY FROM ME!!!!! – All those hands in the air, the pressure in the air, all the voices just screaming, the “crowd” was jumping as ONE…. so… Incredible. No encore, unfortunately, because it was a record for MTV, we were just “assistants” :( Unfortunately. But it was still unbelievable to see them LIVE and FREE!!!!! :D

I would have really stayed… you know.. some people waited for them to shoot photos and all that. I would have stayed, but my back… but… I do swear. Like I swore after Sziget. I will get better… next time. No one will stop me :) Because see, I made a decision…

I will not pass away until I can hold Tom’s rocker in my hand. (Kayla told me, the rocker is the thing they make the strings… vibrate. OR what)

I would really like to tell you about other things happened there. If you want to read my report from right after the concert, and you can speak in Hungarian, check my Hungarian blog. I don’t really remember what I wrote there, so sorry if it’s one mess :D

Be good ;)

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“Must I always take a back seat?”

{ September 17, 2009 @ 3:21 pm } · { Music, Thoughtful }
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Lol, I don’t think you’ll see non-quotic (is that a real word?) as a post title nowadays, cause I’m kinda into Starsailor’s music :)

Er… to tell the truth.. I was always like… couldn’t live without music. You know…. until… OneRepublic… it was the place and the time when I was quite… out of music. I loved listening to music, but I kinda lost my interest in it, and now, that Editors in the front line, Starsailor also started to besiege the towers of my heart (omg xD) I totally hate silence. I’m always listening to something and silence ANNOYS me.

And I am so proud of my musical taste :D I don’t care if it’s not that deep, it’s not that serious or WHATEVER, or it can’t express so many.. layers(?) of emotions as the Idontknowwhich genre but… I love it… it’s my own music :)

And a statement: James Walsh and Jonathan Jones are cool guys and they’re kind to obsessed fans. Like me :D I kinda… did… what… Kayla… does… and… sent them… a letter xD I mean, a mail, and they RESPONDED!!! Or replied… or just answered. WHATEVER, and I know they’re them, because their twitter doesn’t lie, and because they’re not that famous (let’s say: SERIOUSLY UNDERRATED) they can be really surprised by fans like me ^-^

But truth to be told (or what), I really appreciate their music. We Shot The Moon always make me happy and… Starsailor… Well, it’s like a dream… what I said when I was totally in love with The Fray (the feeling lingers in my heart, no matter what happens) The music they do (Starsailor) is a music everyone’d do if they had anything that’s similar to a brain……..

I know, it’s highly lopsided and I’m probably the living example of prejudice, but.. but I love it and I can’t find this kinda music in any bushes. o.O” :D People say indie is common and everyone does a little indie but… not that kind of indie I dig… I don’t even know what it exactly means, but don’t get me started on asking questions, because I wouldn’t be done for midnight.

And.. I guess… James Walsh has the cutest English accent I’ve ever heard. See, it’s interesting. His singing voice is powerful, it’s husky – sometimes -, and it’s… not deep… it’s.. cool :D But his speaking voice, xD Seriously, it’s a joke, when I first heard it, I was like: Omg, who’s this guy talking? It can’t be that James Walsh that sings. xD But he is… and he has an adorable accent :)

Uhm… I remember how I hated English accent… then Paul McGillion arrived with his Scottish accent (and Paul Wilson, let’s not forget about him ;) ) Nate and Gary with their Northern-Irish one… Danny with the Irish accent (man, it’s awesome :D ) and Lily Allen… Kate Nash and finally, James Walsh.. I love them…

Uhm… I just… felt the urge to write aaaaalll these things. ^-^

I hope you’re enlightened enough to return to your daily business.

…

Uhm. Amen?

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